It’s a Thursday morning and I jump in the car with my daughter buckled up in the back. I’m dressed, washed hair, have make up on and I’m feeling half decent. I’ve managed to get more than two hours sleep in a row and I feel like my old self. I have this moment while […]
I lost…
I didn’t just loose my baby… I lost her first words I lost sleepless nights I lost mummy snuggles I lost hearing her laugh I lost her first steps I lost her 1st birthday I lost all birthdays I lost her first day of kinder I lost teaching her to ride a bike I lost […]
Mum moments
It’s a new kind of ache that takes over my body. It comes at 3am in the morning when feeding your sister or at 2pm in the afternoon when she is staring into my eyes. It’s the realisation of all the moments we missed together. We were robbed of our time together where I could […]
Pregnancy After Stillbirth
Pregnancy after still birth is as hard as you imagine and probably more terrifying than even I thought it was going to be. You see for the many months after losing my daughter my focus was on falling pregnant and having another baby. All I wanted was to hold my baby in my arms and […]
Your 1st birthday!
It turns out that not even mastering your birthday cake will bring you back. As I sit here tired after doing a trial cake for your big day I can’t help but end up in tears because it turned out really good. It tasted good, looked good and I hadn’t burnt it or anything and […]
Superhero!
Congratulations! Welcome to the club… You are now a Mum. A superhero in your daughter’s eyes. You now posses superpowers of enormous strength and true love beyond your belief. Never did I think that as I walk through my life day to day would I wear the Supermum suit under my clothes. To the everyday […]
My first Christmas without you- Written for SANDS Australia Blog
The countdown to Christmas is on and all the tell-tale signs of the ‘most wonderful time of the year’ are all around. Shops full of decorations, cute little festive outfits for children and parents lined up with screaming kids for hours just to get that one photo with the big jolly man. I normally love […]
Striped Uniform
The irony of stripes is that normally I would avoid this look at all cost. My pre maternity body could not pull this look off even on a good day. Horizontal stripes are known to make you look wider than you are. But yet in some weird twisted maternity universe the opposite is in fact […]
Remembering You
I always have this fear that perhaps bit by bit as time passes that we will remember our baby not less but perhaps celebrate her less if that makes sense. For me as her Mum there is no doubt in the world that every day for the rest of my life I will think of […]
15th October ‘International pregnancy and infant loss remembrance day’
15th October is International Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. On this day, parents and families across Australia honour their babies who passed away from miscarriage, stillbirth or postnatal causes. Heartfelt https://www.heartfelt.org.au/ Heartfelt is a volunteer organisation of professional photographers from all over Australia dedicated to giving the gift of photographic memories to families that […]